Backslider

Backsliding is what I call this. I’m a teacher maybe grading papers on a messy desk which only stays clean for one hour tops btw. But you can’t see my heart or where I stand with God and that’s where the backsliding is happening. I am annoyed with myself + feel guilty + am convicted.
I have my reasons for it and excuses but nothing can justify why I haven’t read my Bible in five days. Yeah, five days.
The pattern is very apparent to me. When I don’t stay in the Word like I should, I become easily exhausted and not filled. I run out of fuel, and today, I was running on empty. I am not surprised when I wear out quickly on a week like this week and don’t pick up the Bible once. I should’ve prepared myself for each day and what was to come, but I didn’t do it. I prepared lessons-not myself.
Don’t do what I did this week. It’s so much easier to not set aside time to spend with God because everything else seems to be looming over your head and you want to get it all done. If you can barely function from being exhausted, don’t expect good results. Running around like crazy trying to get everything in order in a chaotic setting was totally me all week & I don’t see how that’s a good example. The truth of the matter is that it wasn’t. It’s really hard to spot Christ in someone’s life if they aren’t spending necessary time with Him. To pour out, we must always be filled up.

Author: countrymilefaith

Hey, y'all! I'm Emily, a simple country girl with a BIG love for the Lord, coffee, sunflowers, cooking, and gardening. I graduated from college one year ago in Secondary Agricultural Education, and I am now fulfilling my dream of teaching agriculture to high school and middle school students while also teaching science in the mix. I am happily married to my college sweetheart, Brad, who doubles as my ag teaching partner! We are newly weds, so we are just getting around to starting a farm. As we add animals to the Cooper Fam and complete projects, y'all will be the first ones to know. :) Tator is our sweet Goldendoodle puppy that we consider to be our first child, and he keeps us on our toes all the time. Between the demands of teaching and life, I enjoy writing and encouraging others in their walk with the Lord sticking tidbits of what I experience along this journey in my writing. I hope that you will follow along and that this blog will help your faith grow longer than a country mile!

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