A story, a symbol, a masterpiece…
Brad, my husband, saw a piano free on Facebook. It was left in a shed where it received water damage and the fluctuating temperatures ruined its insides. He decided to take this on as his biggest woodworking project to date. He completely refurbished it. He changed out all the inside pieces, rebuilt and stained some parts, sanded it, varnished it, and gave it to me as a gift. I was and still am completely in awe. When I opened up the inside and he explained to me how he replaced the parts, I just stared at him with my mouth open. The amount of time and patience that was placed into this beautiful work of art cannot be numbered. I didn’t even know I wanted a piano until he gave me this one. I have a keyboard that I bought for myself while I was in high school with money I made from selling watermelons. It only got the job done through the years, but I will admit a keyboard is nothing like playing this piano!
I’m not writing this to brag about how good Brad is to me (although, I don’t deserve him at all because he’s entirely too good for me). We’ve been married for a year and a half and the big secret to it is letting God be in the middle. This piano reminds me that marriage is simple and shouldn’t be complicated. Marriage is like playing a piano…you go through highs and lows, you hit the black keys every now and then that take you by surprise but turn out being all part of the song, and when a key sticks or you hit a wrong note, you work through it and keep playing anyway. ❤️
I went through a major fashion phase right after I got married. If it was on sale, cheap to me, and cute, I would ask Brad and buy it. Now that I look back on it, I have understood why. Fashion + clothes + shoes are tons of fun to me, and I ❤️ being creative with outfits. I have been that kind of girl before I could talk (just ask my mom), but it increased so much more after marriage…
I have slacked up buying clothes the past 6 months and haven’t bought much of anything except books (Brad and I are book nerds now🤓) and groceries.
It just dawned on me WHY I would buy clothes other than just liking them and being on sale. It isn’t because I had more closet space. I did have more room which was a bonus, but that wasn’t the reason. It also isn’t because I needed to give clothes away and make a wardrobe update. I did that too, but again, this isn’t the reason.
It’s clear to me now: clothes became my way of finding confidence. Being newly married, I felt a crazy amount of pressure to be a perfect wife and everything good I’ve read about. It was my way of gaining stability when my circumstances changed. I was seeing girls at church with the latest fashion trend on or fashion bloggers on my IG feed stating the must-haves for the season. I was looking to prove myself to people and finding confidence in clothes…🤦🏻♀️
You guys, it took me until NOW to figure this out. The message I need to get to you is this: look deep into your heart. Satan plants pressure there, little lies that don’t seem to be a big deal until they grow into a monster that tears your life away piece by piece. Harsh, I know. Confidence & stability when life is changing can only be found in Christ. Carefully monitor what you are allowing yourself to believe. You control whether you believe LIES or TRUTH, friends!
The beignets (pronounced ben-yay) + coffee are as real as it gets at Cafe Du Monde, and it’s hard for anyone outside of this restaurant to mimic their iconic food. The Pharisees remind me of a good lookin’ beignet or cup of coffee but a bad tasting one….
The Pharisees were classified as Jesus’ enemies even though most of the people were deceived into thinking they were “for” Jesus. The Pharisees prayed loudly in the streets and synagogues and wore exquisite and beautiful clothes. They constantly tested Jesus, and they made stupid, impossible laws for people to follow. They waited for someone to mess up to call them out on their sin. This particular group was about bringing glory to themselves and basically, wanted people to worship them. Jesus warned His people to be careful around the Pharisees and not to listen to them. He was quick to tell them when they were wrong and found them to be hypocrites!
The Pharisees were FAKE to the core. Looking at them, they seemed to have it altogether on the outside but their insides were nasty.
The Pharisees also made things public. They always wanted attention. But how much time did they spend with the Lord in private? What did they do that went unseen to the people but not to God?
Everything we do in private will be reflected in public….
praying and handing our burdens to God=peacefulness + rest
asking for forgiveness=released from guilt + shame
reading our Bibles=gained knowledge and wisdom to share
And the list goes on.
It’s not about you. It’s not about us. It’s about God, our Father. Your heart needs that time away from the world and to share private moments with God to live authentically and in a way He wants you to live. Don’t be a Pharisee.
Backsliding is what I call this. I’m a teacher maybe grading papers on a messy desk which only stays clean for one hour tops btw. But you can’t see my heart or where I stand with God and that’s where the backsliding is happening. I am annoyed with myself + feel guilty + am convicted.
I have my reasons for it and excuses but nothing can justify why I haven’t read my Bible in five days. Yeah, five days.
The pattern is very apparent to me. When I don’t stay in the Word like I should, I become easily exhausted and not filled. I run out of fuel, and today, I was running on empty. I am not surprised when I wear out quickly on a week like this week and don’t pick up the Bible once. I should’ve prepared myself for each day and what was to come, but I didn’t do it. I prepared lessons-not myself.
Don’t do what I did this week. It’s so much easier to not set aside time to spend with God because everything else seems to be looming over your head and you want to get it all done. If you can barely function from being exhausted, don’t expect good results. Running around like crazy trying to get everything in order in a chaotic setting was totally me all week & I don’t see how that’s a good example. The truth of the matter is that it wasn’t. It’s really hard to spot Christ in someone’s life if they aren’t spending necessary time with Him. To pour out, we must always be filled up.
I have written this post a number of times and never posted it because it’s so personal, but God keeps wanting me to share this and I can’t run from it anymore. There is a girl out there somewhere that needs this, so here goes nothing.
I fell in love with a guy when I was 15. I really did even though some may argue that it wasn’t love but “infatuation.” I know the difference between the two, and I knew it then as well. He was my best friend for a long time, and I caught all the feelings after awhile. I truly got to know him first through our friendship. I remember praying to God to allow us to date and for him to like me.
He told me he liked me (finally) and we dated my entire high school career except my freshmen year when we were building a friendship. We were alike in so many ways, and I thought that we would get married one day like most couples who date for a long time in high school. I had plans with him.
But God is cool and way bigger than the plans I made for myself. When that guy broke up with me, I was so heartbroken. It was an all-time low in my life. I didn’t eat, sleep, and I basically just cried for a couple weeks wondering why and how could this happen? (Haha, don’t pity this experience because a lot of girls go through it! You may be one of them!) I mean, it was so stinkin’ hard y’all! It took me the longest time to get over the broken relationship. God is gracious though and amazing. Over time, I realized that we wouldn’t have worked out because of how much we changed.
Going through that experience made me aware that placing a person and my own plans above God is dangerous. It is allowing that person to have reign over your heart and emotions more than God which ends in destruction. Guarding your heart (Proverbs 4:23) prevents that destruction in the first place. Just because God places a person in your life, doesn’t mean they are always meant to stay there. Maybe the reasoning was to lead that person to Christ or to have an influence on their decisions in the future. I always wondered when I would start seeing “the reasons” unfold, and they eventually did!
Trust God because He knows what He’s doing even when you can’t see it!
When was the last time you RELAXED? Like completely, totally RESTED? If you answered that question and said “I’m not sure the last time I rested” it’s time that you do just that!
When I first married Brad, it took me a long time to understand how to honor the Sabbath Day. I still slip up and do laundry sometimes, but I had to put resting on Sunday into action. He was taught not work on Sunday, and because of that, I chose to start enjoying Sundays with him too. I had to wean myself away from doing lesson plans, vacuuming, and cleaning the house on Sundays. After I started observing the Sabbath Day the right way, it has become my favorite day of the week. I look forward to doing most of my chores on Saturday and cleaning floors on Monday instead. I highly recommend that you begin resting and relaxing on Sundays as well. It has changed my life for the better by allowing me to fill up my cup spiritually, physically, and mentally. Just that one day during the week makes a lot of difference in my work week especially being a school teacher. If God rested during the Creation, shouldn’t we follow His example and rest? Most of us use the excuse of being too busy! It does take some time to shift into honoring the Sabbath Day by resting, but the sooner you start this habit, the more blessed you will be by it because God commands us to honor the Sabbath Day! Before tomorrow gets here, you should plan to spend it resting, going to church to fill up your spiritual cup, and reflecting!
I used to hate Dr. Pepper. Either you just thought I was crazy for never liking it in the first place or you don’t know why I like it now. Over the course of these last 5 years, either I was forced to drink it because there was nothing else or I would try it randomly because one of my roommates absolutely loved it. Even though it wasn’t my favorite drink back in the day, it has slowly turned into my first grab because I was exposed to it & tried it for awhile! The reason I am bringing this up is because I’ve noticed a trend with people in my generation in particular…
Things that we shouldn’t agree with are being thrown at us at all different directions….things that we don’t want to swallow but feel forced to swallow. After so much exposure from being on social media, watching the news, and what have you, I have seen people throwing in the towel on fighting for what’s righteous and Godly. It is disheartening to me, so I wanted to offer a bit of encouragement to y’all who are standing for what’s right and what follows the Bible.
Y’all, we cannot give up on standing up for Jesus and His truth. He lives in us. We need to stop falling into the sinful junk and start making our first grab the Bible instead of our phone. There’s pressure to agree with all the things of this world, but you see, that’s the problem: THEY ARE THINGS OF THIS WORLD. We are supposed to be different from the world. We are supposed to shine Jesus’ light in the darkness and sinfulness of this world NOT FALL CAPTIVE INTO AGREEING WITH WHAT IT HAS TO SAY.
Ground yourself in the truth. Continue to love people. Be kind to others. Express joy. IT’S TIME TO SHINE. And don’t let people or the Devil try to dim it because that’s the goal. ‘nuff said.
CONVICTED and I must share…
Hours and hours have gone into planning units for my classes, planning individual lessons, watching classroom management videos, pinning cool experiments and projects, getting a head start on my Interactive Notebooks that I will be using this year, and so forth. But y’all know what I haven’t done yet? I have yet to pray over my kids, over the school year, over my attitude, over the interactions that will take place in my classroom this year.
Why haven’t I made time to pray? My priorities haven’t been right. There, I said it. I want these kids to succeed and do well on their state tests, and I decided to immerse myself so far into planning lessons that I haven’t MADE THE TIME to pray for these kids, our school, administration, their families, etc.
Y’all, I’ve been believing that the more work I put into these lessons and the more prep I do, the better. That’s the total wrong formula for a successful school year…it should be: God + work = success.
When God is left out of the equation, I WILL FAIL. I will not make it if God is placed on the back burner of my life because sometimes, negative comments are made, mean words are said, or discouragement from not getting control of the class can tear and pull at me. I noticed that last year, I didn’t spend much time praying over my day or school year. I hardly prayed for my students at all. I need to change for this upcoming school year because if I don’t give God the glory in all I do or seek Him first in my life, if I don’t give Him my day EVERY DAY, I will allow myself to become swamped, drained, and overwhelmed.
Tonight, I’m praying for you if you are a teacher or student. Being in either role is tough in these dark days. I pray that you will be a light in the darkness and that you will shine Christ’s love to others. I pray that you will stand up for the Lord and that He will give you strength. ❤️ If you’re a teacher too and haven’t prayed about your school year or haven’t prayed for your students, stop what you’re doing, and PRAY NOW. Let’s start the school year off right, shall we? Prayers are MORE POWERFUL than lesson plans, friends.
I sat in the Indy airport watching the time to board my flight push up. I had a connecting flight from Charlotte to New Orleans to make it back home. The time of my first flight was pushed up too far for me to make my next flight, and I was so scared that I wasn’t going to be able to come home until the next day. As soon as the first plane rolled in, my first flight updated on my airline’s phone app. It advised me to cancel my connecting flight because the time of the flights overlapped. The app gave me directions to book the next flight to New Orleans and to confirm it. I was in line to board my plane at this point and for some reason, my phone app wouldn’t let me book the next flight. It showed me that there was only one flight left into New Orleans for the day scheduled to leave at 10:30 pm, and I just felt that I would be stuck in Charlotte. I thought I would need to get a hotel. The whole airport was delayed, and I became sick to my stomach knowing that the seats to the last flight in New Orleans were going to fill up before I would be able to book my next flight. I boarded the plane and took my seat. Earlier that day, another ag teacher showed me that she was able to receive a QR code on her phone to board her plane online. I hurriedly went online instead of using the app to try to book the last flight. I typed in my info, and it brought me to a similar screen like the app.
I prayed over it to work. I prayed that God would let me come home last night and to help me book this flight.
Unlike the app, the website didn’t tell me I had to see an agent to confirm my flight, and I was able to book it. In just that short amount of time, I saw that almost all of the seats were taken. Even though my connecting flight was delayed another hour and half and my plane pulled in late to avoid storms, I made it home at 3 am.
We may think that praying over something silly or small in our lives may not work, but I’m here to tell you that it does. God is listening. Sometimes, all it takes is for us to call out to Him for help and have faith that He will come through for us.
I had bad acne in the beginning of college from the food I was eating in our cafeteria, the bad water quality on-campus at the time, & probably hormones. I never left to go anywhere without nothing on my face. In high school, I had great skin and not a single blemish. I would wear makeup every day just because I enjoyed putting it on and liked to play with it. It wasn’t bc I felt like I needed it, but all that changed in college. I found myself looking back to my high school years when my skin would never break out & wondered why I had to struggle with acne NOW. I was so annoyed! I became obsessed over covering up my blemishes and acne to the point that my obsession with it almost controlled my life.
-summer time…no, I can’t go underwater in the pool because my makeup will come off
-mornings…I have to wake up at least fifteen mins earlier to put on my makeup
-while eating…*dabbing carefully with a napkin so I don’t mess up my makeup so no one sees*
Y’all, it was BAD! My skin took a couple years to “clear up,” and even though I still break out from time to time, it was nothing like those first couple of years in college!
I found that I was placing my confidence and identity in makeup instead of Jesus. I was scared of how boys would look at me and that I would get the wrong kind of attention bc of the acne on my face. None of us like acne but if you feel that you HAVE to put on makeup to be beautiful, it means that you are choosing to believe you aren’t beautiful without it. I was placing my looks on such a high pedestal and believing & feeding the lies that I HAD to wear makeup!
No, girl! You don’t HAVE to wear makeup to be beautiful.
Now, I apply makeup still for the fun of it and not bc I feel like it’s a necessity. I catch myself wanting to cover up one stupid little pimple and put on a full face just for that one spot! Ugh! God has been working on changing my perspective about makeup for the longest time now. God looks at the heart & what goes in the heart is reflected on your countenance. If you fill your heart with scripture and truth, then it will show because you are placing your identity in Jesus and God’s Word instead of in makeup!